Where life resumes.

Wow. So, apparently it takes about two months for me to get my bearings. I've officially been at home for two months today and I'm just getting back to the point where I can function as a non-mother-person. It's been a roller coaster ride, but most days I'm glad I'm on it and am trying my hardest to stay sane. I feel like I have a million things pulling me in three million directions, but such is the life of every mother I guess.

There are a few things that I've realized in the past week or so and one of them is that I need to get my head cleared in a major way. So, I'm hoping now that the new computer is set up, blogging will begin again! I don't expect it will be pretty, but I think that's normal. Personally, I'm tired of the sheen that the internet seems to put over everyone else's life. I have been searching for authenticity and although the internet is certainly not the first place I should be looking, it's the most accessible place for me right now and that's caused so much heartache for me. To combat that, I'm going to try as hard as I can to be authentic, to be me here, there and everywhere. Yes, I admit that's sort of not really possible on a blog, but you'll have to deal if you're reading this. Unless you want to come over and just hang out to vet me and all. Please, feel free. Except on Fridays because I'm usually busy then.

FOUND: New path.

I've realized recently that I have trouble making big announcements. I'm more of a one-on-one person, spreading news to close friends in little bits. It was the same when I was pregnant with one of my kids. It was difficult for me to figure out how to announce another human was being added to our family and so I usually just waited for someone to ask if I had consumed one too many donuts before saying anything about my expanding midsection.

It isn't without pause that I make the next announcement: as of May 15, I am changing careers. After the past month's ups and downs, TDH Man and I have decided that it's time for me to stay at home with the littles and take a new path. I have a confession: I'm scared. There are so many layers to this fear, but in my heart, I know it's what our family needs right now. Three kids, two careers, one child with medical issues, and another with possible medical issues was just not adding up to one happy Momma. I love my career as a librarian, I really do. It was one of those passions that started in my heart as a kid and I never knew how it grew until I had the chance to see it through. And I am so, so grateful that I was able to follow that road for seven years. But the path has changed a bit and although I'll be off it for a bit, if it is God's will that I rejoin it, I will when the time comes.

I'll also confess that I'm looking forward to lots of things too. I'm looking forward to teaching my kids about the world, taking morning runs, listening to G's crazy stories, complaining to TDH Man about how they're driving me crazy, and trying every day to be present in the life of my family.

I'm praying that God will watch over me, the littles, TDH Man and keep us sane in this transition time! I wonder if they make a GPS for this...